I’m not posting things as often as I’d like and I think I may have pin-pointed some of the reason. I actually have quite a few blogs written that I haven’t posted, for I am not happy with them. I’ve held certain things back from you guys and due to this I find that I hold myself back from truly writing what I wish. I’m ready to write in a more creative way, to write on different things,to allow you to get to know a different side of me. Since my move, I feel as if I’ve begun my journey. I’ve struggled with going against what my heart is pulling me to do. Mainly because it is not easy, it does not make any sense. Yet, as I listen to my heart and allow it to guide me, I am noting positive transformations within myself.
I have a writing that I free wrote about my passion, what I see myself doing in the near future. I’ve spent months attempting to hone my thoughts and they are finally here! I shared it with a friend last week and since then I’ve been inspired to share it with a few others. Something is telling me to post it as a blog. After reading it, you will know where my heart lies and will have a deeper understanding of my earlier writings. From this point forward, I will strive to free write the rest of my blog posts. To grow in confidence, to not think twice what others think of me, to allow myself to truly feel free in every possibly moment of my life. And this is the perfect way for me to begin…
I first want to travel amongst different cultures and gain knowledge and experience the different lifestyles. I realize that there are problems in the U.S., but across all nations there is one thing that we share. We are all human beings. At our core we are all equal. I wish to acquaint myself with different cultures and gain hands on experience with their problems. Really get to know them, for I am confident that it will only heighten my level of motivation in bringing our world together.
Once I travel through different countries, experiencing different cultures I plan on visiting the US. There has to be a huge change in the way we live our lives. If we can get enough people together, we can find solutions to our problems. I have complete faith in humanity. I understand that things will not change overnight, but baby steps is all that I care about. I’d like to see communities coming together. Growing their own gardens, striving to aim their meals on eating local produce, finding different ways of transportation. I’d like to find a way of actually getting people to care about our beautiful planet. To appreciate all that it is. Ahhh, I find myself overwhelmed, anxious. There are soo many things I don’t know. I have soo much research to do. But I can’t give up. Just reading new things a few minutes every day will greatly expand my knowledge. The main thing I must remember is to listen to my heart, feel it. When I allow myself to write and think things in this way I feel so motivated, so connected to life, to the divine spirit, to my path. I feel as if my time is coming soon. It’s been building but I’m about to explode and omgosh I’m soo ready for it to happen. I feel as if I can’t go on living my life of just hanging out. I’m not fulfilled, I’m not truly happy. Have I ever been? Looking back, no. My heart is aching to do something. I almost feel as if I can’t take it. But it’s this feeling that is pushing me to find my passion, for the moment that I realize that I am completely content and happy and fulfilled will be the most amazing feeling ever. And I will truly appreciate it. I am learning to be patient though, for this will not happen until I am ready. Until I accept the present moment for what it is.” ~Angelique Watson, April 2010