Breaking down your walls

beauty. What does it mean to you? I find myself struggling to feel beautiful. Am constantly reminding myself to note the beauty in the world around me. To enjoy the beautiful moments I experience in my day-to-day life. But what is beautiful to me may not be beautiful to you.I find that we, human beings, place unnecessary standards and judgements on beauty, on certain situations, on people, on emotions, on anything really. We tend to live our life according to the measures of society. But why?

I sometimes hesitate to write on certain topics because I’m afraid of what people will think of me. I’ll act in certain ways because I don’t want others to judge me. I’ll say certain things around certain people because I know that is what they want to hear. But at times my insides are screaming to say the opposite. To do the opposite. For that is not who I am and definitley not who I am meant to be. I find that these thoughts are mainly based in my subconscious. Before I began the inner journey of getting to know myself, I didn’t realize the insecurities that guided my actions.

If you haven’t realized my entire blog is based on finding/discovering your true self. On becoming the person you were born to become. On living out your passion and purpose in life. I am not an expert on this. I honestly do not know many of the answers. But one thing that sets me apart is that I am trying. I realize that I have many things to learn about life, about the world around me. I am constantly working on understanding myself, am working on not shying away from the unknown, and am striving to follow my heart. I am realizing that it is worse to ignore something than it is to actually face it. I am openly admitting my faults and my insecurities. I still worry what others think of me, have doubts in myself and am not always positive. Yet, I’ve found that through the process of facing my insecurities, they actually begin to lessen. Whenever I listen to my heart and base my actions on what I really wish to do, I find that I feel satisfied. I realize that I set my own limitations and the obstacles that I experience are all my own doing. If I don’t care for the way things are going in my life, I must be the one to change it.

My attempted point is to empower you to strive to be your own person. To continuously do things that make you uncomfortable. To face your biggest, deepest, darkest fears. And to actively work on not put anything off for a later time. For putting things off is merely the onset of procrastination. Embarking upon bad habitual practices will only slow the emergence of the beautiful being that is patiently awaiting to shine through.

I challenge you to think about your insecurities. In what ways do they control your life? What situations make you uncomfortable and how often do you avoid them? What type of people do you surround youreslf with? Do they challenge you to grow? Can you be your complete self around them? Just take some time to think. It doesn’t matter where you are, just as long as your are by yourself. In this way you will not allow anything or anyone else to influence your thoughts. Give yourself 30 seconds or give yourself 30 minutes, however much time you feel to be relevant!